Losing Faith
I have spent weeks thinking through so many topics. Seeking for this first post to be perfect. The one that gets read and is a massive success. That is when I stopped and realized this blog is about my voice and it is not perfect.
Recently I read an IG post titled “To those who think I’ve lost my faith” which helped me reflect on my faith after leaving a church that ended being a toxic and lonely place. For 2 years I tried to work through some of my issues but realized I was dying in a church that upheld an oppressive faith and with its silence upheld white supremacy. I spent years thinking I was losing my faith but I was actually on a path to finding a new way of living.
January 6, 2021 was the day my view shifted and I knew the end at my previous church had come. The insurrection revealed that my previous church would not take a stand against anti-blackness. It would remain neutral and to me that is choosing the side of the oppressor. I couldn't live that way anymore so I left alone to a different faith community where my pain and hope for more have been held.
I am beginning to understand that there is a rebirth happening in my life. I am finding a faith that is liberated and open to Creator who’s love is unending. I am finding communities that are are liberated and pushing to embrace all of who I am. This blog will be a space where you will hear my thoughts on anything from faith to issues that needed to addressed but I was afraid to speak on.